I’m lost. I feel like I’m lost in a black hole with no way to escape. the pain eats at me & everyday is a struggle. a struggle to get of bed, a struggle to go to school, a struggle to do homework & a struggle to go out. I never want to do anything anymore. I just want to bury my head in my blankets and stay there for days. I want to be happy. I want someone to be there for me no matter what and a shoulder to cry on. Lately I’ve realised how obsessed I am with being skinny & losing weight. I don’t know if that’s my eating disorder coming back or the bitchy girls who judge every flaw they can find on you making you feel to insecure to wear shorts in public.
I don’t understand how the one person you thought would care and support you the most, who not only doesn’t give a flying fuck but makes you feel worse about yourself. I have so many mumbled words in my head but don’t know how to put them into sentences. my life is one big messy blur, with no escape. I don’t want to hurt anymore.